Dear God I’m so sick of me I’m so tired of my excuse/
I’m just to quick to speak and always make like the fool/
I cast your seeds to the stones so I reap what I had sown/
In charge of a little and did nothing more to grow/
Always slow to listen to prideful to see what you have/
I know to much for wisdom/ and only pray on my behalf/
I’m selfish and dirty/ I curse your name with a forked tongue/
I’m helpless and unworthy/ and still you show more love/
I can do nothing but weep/ tears pour out onto your feet/
And I wipe them with the broken pieces of heart on my sleeve/
I felt exposed, and Jesus I offer you this broken man/
A soul defeated I have nothing more this is what I am/
Take me and cleanse me/ see these roots upend these/
Break me have me emptied/ broken hearts he mending/
I tried to wear your crown and it was much too heavy/
I found you in the shadows when I felt unloved and empty/
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When I face the hard times I turn to what I last fought/
Trace the scar lines and ash to days of sackcloth/
I’m tired of the hard truth/ I’m tired of trying to argue/
I open up just enough for you to pull my heart through/
And It’s the same problems with the same late answers/
It’s the same heartbreak and same fake laughter/
And I’m back to where I was/ I couldn’t adapt to the love/
But that’s my pitfalls with the same facts to confront/
And it’s that same feeling of being removed of your honor/
It’s being given the river of life then polluting the water/
It’s the drawbacks/ with the same old fall backs/
It’s that long path/ away from were I always feel strong at/
Its 30 pieces of silver/ its feeling the holes in your hands/
It’s the rooster crowing in front of the sacrificial lamb/
It’s the tears that fall to your feet/ I crawl to my knees/
It’s the breaking when I realize that you’re all that I need…
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Abba Father is there someway/ I can thank you for sunrays/
For the one way/ when I finally understand better is one-day/
For the breath I breathe/ in life and what’s left to see/
For the heart the beats/ when my wife is next to me/
For fixing the hard heart and that withered smile/
For being there for the hard parts and the bitter miles/
For the band aid on my scared heart/ from the sinners trails/
For the last day I sought God and found my inner child/
I want to thank you/ you were there when no one else was/
I want to thank you/ you loved me when no one else does/
And I tend to ignore months of guilt cuts that built up/
Thank you for having me broke then fixed and filled up/
And when the burden was to much and you where baring it/
It’s for the times I put down my cross and you went to carried it/
For the times when I turned my back and spent my inheritance/
Better is one day with you than a life full of experience/ (thank you)
Songwriter and producer CRFT celebrates his spirituality and family on this thoughtful debut LP, featuring Blu, nobigdyl, and more. Bandcamp New & Notable May 10, 2022